This disciple thing is tough. I guess that is what Jesus meant when he told the twelve guys that if they would follow, they had to "take up their cross." It is really a life of abandonment like no other. It just seems that I would be better at it than I really am. Due to my job and new role of "spiritual leader" in a house, I am really hoping that I do get better.
More than anything, I am just so incredibly taken aback that I am living in grace. God looks at me and all my junk and sees Jesus.

One more day that I am living in awareness of God.